Some Kind of Wonderful

I have never known what I wanted to do with my life, or what direction I was going. I have always lived a mediocre life, with mediocre achievements, as many people figure they do as well. I have never won much of an award, never really excelled at a sport or instrument, and I wish I was some kind of social butterfly. I doubted that my life would ever pick up, and I wondered if my life really did have any point to existence. Making do with my life was how I lived. I woke up every day, and did what I had to do to get by. Nothing I did seemed to be enough to appeal to anyone, even myself. Being a freshman in college was rough enough. I moved 4 hours away, didn't know a soul, and making friends for me has always been a challenge.

Today, I had an epiphany.

It seemed like it would rain forever. Day after day, it was cold, wet, and miserable! Today however, was different. I woke up at 6:30, registered for classes like I needed to (got all of them!) and went to class. As I was walking back to my dorm, I did something I should do more.

I looked up.

The sky was the bluest I have seen in such a long time, the birds, which usually bother me in the morning were singing so clearly and loud I thought it was so beautiful! The grass around me was greener than it had been in so long, and the sun was so warm that the cool Vermont air was nothing to complain about. It was strange to me how people do not take the time to stop and look at how beautiful the day was. However, when it was raining, everyone I talked to complained about how terrible the world was that day. However, without the rain, the grass could never be as green as it had been today and the cool breeze was so fresh.

At that moment, I knew exactly what I had to do. My life finally made sense to me for once in my life and I began to cry. Not kidding! Full out tears on such a beautiful day.

I will forever be hopeful and optimistic.

Although the world may rain down on me, it will be my job to be the greenest grass out of the storm, the singing birds, and the warm sunlight. I must bring the hope and love of a perfect sunny day to everyone despite their mood.

I know I may not receive the same kindness that I give to others, but this is not a problem for me. I know that their heavy feelings or unkindness will make me stronger so I can help others. I will give everyone the kindness that the world gives me that they may not want to acknowledge.

No matter how people treat me, I will keep hope, and I will give hope. I want to touch the lives of people in ways that they only can recognize. I do not want any fame of any kind from it, I just want to help.

I know this is what I will do with my life, and I hope to inspire others to do so.

Here is my hope in a world of evil feelings.