friends!

Yesterday was the best day ever! I was so happy!

I woke up to a text from my best friend from home telling me that she hoped I had a wonderful day and that she cant wait till I come home! After that 3 of my friends from home did the same... all being a coincidence! Kathleen also sent me a book titled "The Book of Awesome" which is based off of her favorite online blog about all the little things in life that make you happy..... so great!

Here I am, sitting in class.... really bored. We are talking about how for 1800 years or so, people thought that the world revolved around the sun which led to the creation of the whole world view that Human beings have the right to do what they would like with the world. There Isn't any respect for the world anymore, and with it the people who live in it. Wars have no point, and are means of slaughter and killing and degrading the human soul. Although I support the men and women who have died and continue to serve, I think its awful they had to be put in those situations to begin with... I love our country and always want it to remain free and I respect those who serve...but is war really the answer? I have hope that someday our world will be able to put the idea of war behind us just as they put behind us that we are the center of the universe.

For so long people belived that the Human race was given the Earth and the Earth was the center of the universe...Therefore we owned everything....

Shouldn't people get off their pedistles and look around them? This world is bigger than they are, we need to give it the respect it needs, along with all the people on it!

Love everyone around you, they are links on your chain. Everyone you meet will be forever interconnected with you in some way. Keep your chain strong, because you never know when you will need it to pull you up.

Keep hope alive for humanity. We will find a way. Keep hope in yourself.

Happy 4/20 to all who are celebrating :)

It is a beautiful day! I might walk to the corry, query, courey? I have no idea what it is called.... Jake says its a big hole in the ground. Anyways, I might walk there with a couple of my friends and enjoy the day.

Today, Steph asked me to go see her new room with her in Founders for next year's campus housing. She was offered a room in a suite, but doesn't know if she should leave her little single room near me in Founders, to go to a really nice room in the suites to live with a few people she doesn't know well. I was offered the same spot and said "no thank you" because it really did not appeal to me... I said I would go with her. I have so much to do today, I am not sure its the best idea! Steph has been so nice to me lately, she even got me a birthday present on friday! (April 16th is my brithday) I really would like to do this for her =]

I would like to help give her peace of mind that no matter what place she picks to live, she will make many friends and be happy there!

Some Kind of Wonderful

I have never known what I wanted to do with my life, or what direction I was going. I have always lived a mediocre life, with mediocre achievements, as many people figure they do as well. I have never won much of an award, never really excelled at a sport or instrument, and I wish I was some kind of social butterfly. I doubted that my life would ever pick up, and I wondered if my life really did have any point to existence. Making do with my life was how I lived. I woke up every day, and did what I had to do to get by. Nothing I did seemed to be enough to appeal to anyone, even myself. Being a freshman in college was rough enough. I moved 4 hours away, didn't know a soul, and making friends for me has always been a challenge.

Today, I had an epiphany.

It seemed like it would rain forever. Day after day, it was cold, wet, and miserable! Today however, was different. I woke up at 6:30, registered for classes like I needed to (got all of them!) and went to class. As I was walking back to my dorm, I did something I should do more.

I looked up.

The sky was the bluest I have seen in such a long time, the birds, which usually bother me in the morning were singing so clearly and loud I thought it was so beautiful! The grass around me was greener than it had been in so long, and the sun was so warm that the cool Vermont air was nothing to complain about. It was strange to me how people do not take the time to stop and look at how beautiful the day was. However, when it was raining, everyone I talked to complained about how terrible the world was that day. However, without the rain, the grass could never be as green as it had been today and the cool breeze was so fresh.

At that moment, I knew exactly what I had to do. My life finally made sense to me for once in my life and I began to cry. Not kidding! Full out tears on such a beautiful day.

I will forever be hopeful and optimistic.

Although the world may rain down on me, it will be my job to be the greenest grass out of the storm, the singing birds, and the warm sunlight. I must bring the hope and love of a perfect sunny day to everyone despite their mood.

I know I may not receive the same kindness that I give to others, but this is not a problem for me. I know that their heavy feelings or unkindness will make me stronger so I can help others. I will give everyone the kindness that the world gives me that they may not want to acknowledge.

No matter how people treat me, I will keep hope, and I will give hope. I want to touch the lives of people in ways that they only can recognize. I do not want any fame of any kind from it, I just want to help.

I know this is what I will do with my life, and I hope to inspire others to do so.

Here is my hope in a world of evil feelings.

What Lies Inside

To whoever is reading this blog,

I hope that it brings to you as much help and love as it has brought to me in just the writing of it. However, I have no way of knowing if anyone but myself will ever read this blog. It is highly doubtful with all the mess of blogs that are out there in the world today that anyone could read these words, but I will pretend for now. For many who, like me, have crossed paths with people's personal thoughts via blogs... Its easy to spot that many of them were complaints of peoples day to day lives... yeah we have all done it. Someone asks how your day has been, you groan, you sigh, remark about how tired you are or how you wish it were friday... and now it has translated to the internet, blogs about how people piss you off, or how everything just plain sucks.

This, will not be one of those blogs.

There once was a story of a lady named Pandora. She opened a box that contained all that was bad in the world... but one thing remained in the box, that was hope.

In a world filled with fear, doubt, pain and suffering, this blog will be a little beacon of hope.

I hope.